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Posted: September 17, 2009 in About Me.
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Footprints in the sand

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Dear Diary 6: “/

Posted: July 11, 2009 in Dear Diary
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Have you ever just felt like, “Why me?”

I feel like there are bad decisions I make in my life that cause me to ask this question.

I feel like I need to change myself so that things in my life can start getting better and I will be much happier.

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Gotta make a change
For once in my life
It’s gonna feel real good, gonna make a difference
Gonna make it right

As I turned up the collar on, a favorite winter coat
This wind is blowin’ my mind
I see the kids in the street, with not enough to eat
Who am I to be blind, pretending not to see their needs?

A summer’s disregard, a broken bottle top
And a one man’s soul, they follow each other
On the wind ya’ know, ’cause they got nowhere to go
That’s why I want you to know

I’m starting with the man in the mirror
I’m asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make a change

I’ve been a victim of, a selfish kinda love
It’s time that I realize, there are some with no home
Not a nickel to loan
Could it be really pretending that they’re not alone

A willow deeply scarred, somebody’s broken heart
And a washed out dream, they follow the pattern of the wind ya’ see
‘Cause they got no place to be
That’s why I’m starting with me

I’m starting with the man in the mirror
I’m asking him to change his ways
And no message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make a change

I’m starting with the man in the mirror
I’m asking him to change his ways, yeah
No message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself and then make the change
You gotta get it right, while you got the time
‘Cause when you close your heart
Then you close your mind

No message could have been any clearer
If you wanna make the world a better place
Take a look at yourself then make that change

Oh no, I’m gonna make a change
It’s gonna feel real good
Just lift yourself
You know, you got to stop it yourself
Make that change
You got to, you got to not let yourself, brother oh
You know that
You got, you got to move
Come on, come on
You got to
Make that change
You know it, you know it, you know it, you know
Make that change

michael49I don’t feel so well.

Watch it HERE.

michael 2had another breakdown over Michael yesterday.

i had to get out of bed and hide in the bathroom because i couldn’t take it anymore.

the more i thought about it…. the worse it got; crying, uncontrollable shaking. and when the thought that he was dead. gone. not coming back. entered my head, i started throwing up.

ive never been this broken up about a death. ever.

atkinsYes, yes, you guys. I am doing scholarships.

I know what you’re thinking and yes, you’re right…I should’ve BEEN done these scholarships when I was in High School…now I’m suddenly feeling the weight of tuition press down very hard on my shoulders. TO ALL HIGH SCHOOLERS ELIDGEABLE FOR SCHOLARSHIPS: do them! Listen to your english teachers! They are very right!

As for the scholarship that I’m probably going to be staying up till 3am finishing for the rest of the weekend, it’s going to be about Rain—of course! You know I love him…haha. But anyway, this won’t be any normal Rain fanvid you make in a few hours, I’m actually WORKING HARD on this! I’ve got so many video clips, I’m not trying to perfect the timing of the music (I haven’t even begun clipping and editing the videos let alone placed them) and what songs to use…I’m still also not sure if the message I want to make in the video is, “I love him”, “It’s very lonely at the top”, or “He is the greatest”.

Any opinions?

I’ll figure it out…anyway, I’m sure your inquiring as to the Atkins symbol going on up there, well I’m on the Atkins diet friends! I’ve been told, if you follow the diet correctly, you can lose 15-20lbs in 2 weeks…no joke. I know it seems very unlikely, but it’s not! Why is it not? Because the diet is EXTREMELY STRICT! The 3 days I’ve been on it have felt like 3 weeks! (But I’ve read this feeling will go away in a couple days…)

Now as for the math: let’s say, 18lbs in 2 weeks means 9 pounds per week, 1.28lbs per day. How am I doing?—I’VE LOST 4 POUNDS! This shit works!

For those of you all like me out there, trying to shave off some pounds for spring time, as long as you have the will power (and I’m warning you now—this is not for the weak of will!), you can do this and lose the LB’s!

*P.S. After it’s finished, I will post my scholarship submission here.

Until next time,

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Well, 2008, it was a great year. I don’t even need to name all the big things that happened, but I have to give you credit—it was a great year for American AND Korean music. I graduated this year, went to prom, and really and completely immersed myself in Korean culture.

I came to know so many Korean artist this year, that I never liked before like, Lee Hyori, DBSK, SHINee, Wheesung, and I’ve definately started to like Big Bang more.

2009, all I have to say is that you have some BIG shoes to fill!

Anyway, gotta go watch the ball drop! HAVE A GREAT NEW YEAR!!

Check out this crazy, awesome video by mmixes of all the greatest songs in kpop this year (I’m sure you know I love the part with Rain and SHINee, “I gotta be a bad boy, I gotta be a bad boy… Replay, Replay, Replay!”) And Lee Hyori’s, “OK!” is so cute too! ENJOY!!